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| ok heres my random update lol...i have been crazy busy ...theres some much going on its hard to write...but im just gonna go day by day
Friday- I went to mommas...she went out with bryan and her friends...i got custody of the car  josh didnt go to weatherford like he was supposed to...so he calle dme and i went and got him and brought him back to billys...billy...pops and josh drank and shawn came over ...josh almost passed out in the garage....i hung out then josh and i went to lay down...and he passed out...nothing big happened
Sat- josh left for the rest of the weekend..he went to weatherford...we went to the Nascar Thunder Days thing...me mom bryan billy pops haley and heather...then daddy showed up and heather haley and i were up close to the stage and we watched the joe nichols and clay walker concert...OMG THEY ARE SO HOT IN PERSON!!!!...GIRLBONER...lol sat was also prom night...prom didnt turn out to be a great night for some people...but i promise things will get better...whatever happens is whats supposed to happen...then after the concert...i went home with dad after...
Sunday- ummm daddy got baptizied so we went to that...then we all went back to the house and cooked out and watched some of the race and just chilled...then i left with billy marilyn and pops and went back to there house and shawn met us over there later ...they all drank and just played pool and messed with mom all night by calling her phone 800 times lol...i had a crazy ass reaction...got a killer headache and i wanted to die...i went to bed and they all just hung out ...
Monday- umm i got taken to the Doctors... i found out that im severely allergic to any cheap fake metal...only silver and gold for me lol ...i broke out and swelled up like a balloon...they put me on some meds to help but if it doesnt get better next week i have to go in for injections...lol i hate needles lol id rather die lol umm then i went and hung out with mom and billy and marilyn and pops for the day...i went and got a new outfit for the concert ...its awesome!!!...and josh came back from weatherford..i didnt see him but he called
Today- josh called and woke me up ....im dealing with the affect of this med...and it sucks...im just chillin today until 4 cuz then we leave for the rascal flatts concert ...im so excited..my out fit rocks...i think bills mad at me cuz of me and josh...i still love bill always will ..this is a given...but i just dunno ...i just wish he would talk to me!!! but i cant force him too...
well all thats just some of the shit thats been happening...heres my person to person
Shawn- you and i will be friends forever...youve been the person i can talk to ...no matter what im always here just like you are for me...i know things a tough right now but eventually they will all come together...i love you superman mucho grande
Britt- i know things arent going good for you right now and we both are going through alot...but we will get through all of it TOGETHER...we will get through dads medical probs...broken friendships and trust...our falling apart family and relatiosship issues ...WE WILL BE FINE...as long as i have you and you have me WE can do anything...i promise sissy...i love you!!!
Robin- I miss you too cuz ....im having robin withdrawals...you really gotta come out and hang with us again but i will definitely see you on easter...i promise... and oh yeah petes body is to die for...omg i wanna do him lol and have his babies!!! lol well i love you and keep the countdown to warped tour rolling lol
Heather- girly things with leigh will be ok ... and you will get pregnant just give it time...i miss you so much and i cant wait to get there to see yall...i just want you to know that even though im so far im still always here for you...i love you sissy and HI ROB!!! i guess i love you too lol jk i do cuz
Bill- i know you read this...you just dont comment ...i dunno really what to say to you...i love you i really do ...but put yourself in my position...i just dont know what else to say ..read your myspace message...i meant all of it
well all i think im FINALLY done...ill talk to yall later...
LOVE ALWAYS FOREVER & TODAY
~Esha~
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| well i noticed that ROBS updated...so i decided...hmmm i will too!!! its been so long its hard for me to remember...
last thursday- went out to dinner with my momma, britt and josh...went to walmart and bought a camera...just hung out with josh for the rest of the night (thats all i remember)
Last Friday- i have no clue..i really dont remember...but josh stayed the night
Saturday-josh got up and went to work...i stayed home and did nothing but sleep all day lol
Sunday- i hung out with momma...we went to the mall and then to walmart to get my pics (omg they rock ..check some of them out on www.myspace.com/eshabugg05 ) then josh called my mom and told her he was gonna kidnap me later on that night...He did!!! lol Scott, Johnny, Josh and I went to Freestyle and i took some crazy pics (i hope they come out good) then to whataburger for some food..then back home and josh and i hung out and he again spent the night lol BELIEVE ME I DONT MIND!!!
Monday- dad had drs appointments and i went with mom to keep her company...then i came home and did nothing...i dont remember if jash came over or not (WHOOPS) lol
Tuesday- i went to britts counseling appointment with her...then we went to walmart and i bought the new rascal flatts cd (FRIGGIN AMAZING) and i dropped off the freestyle pics...then we went to get britts hair done...sat there for 5 hours...it looks awesome...i love it...then we went to her mommas and i love mom lol...we had dinner and hung out for awhile then came home...but then momma called and dad and i brought some meds out to her...while i was gone Josh came to drop Ben off and he asked britt if i was here and britt told him that i was at mommas and josh was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! (he missed me)...then he went out with the rest of the guys and went bowling...so i didnt get to see him on tuesday but he did call lol...
Yesterday-i got up and then shawn called and was like "get your ass ready...we're going swimming" i was like WHAT!?!?!?!....guess what???? I went swimming...and i froze my ass off lol...then shawn and i took ben to get his labrey pierced ...it looks pretty kick ass...then went to walmart..got some food while ben got this scary fish for his tank...then came home...hung out...watched brokeback mountain (AWESOME MOVIE) (and yes it is about gay cowboys) then watched ONE TREE HILL (Pete from FOB was on it) it was like major girl boner lol then finished brokeback mountain and then hung out with josh...he came over last night and was like "baby dont ever do that again"...i was like WTF did i do now??? and he goes "dont make me miss you" i did the whole aww thing..then he told me that my dad talked to him yet again about me and him (josh)... and josh goes "i think you like me" i said "well duh" and he goes "i think you REALLY like me" and i said "well damn i could have told you that" then he says " BABY, I think your falling for me" I blush...said shut up and stuck my head in the pillow...he took the pillow away from my face and said "i think i have already fell"...come on now...THAT IS THE SWEETEST THING EVER!!! then he stayed over again last night...i love it **SIGH**
Today- well today started off great...josh came in curled up with me and was just being him...then i got up and talked with him until he had to work and kissed him goodbye and then got a shower and im doing laundry now...later on we go hang with momma...i cant wait...
Well all i think ive bored yall enough ...im gonna go talk to you later
ROBS & BRITT-WARPED TOUR IN 56 DAYS...woot woot cant wait...grrrrrrrr baby grrrrrrrr....
LOVE YOU ALL
ALWAYS FOREVER AND TODAY
~Esha~
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| hey all...
well hmmm theres so much to talk about...not really but it sounded good at the time!!!..ummm lets see josh stayed the night on friday night cuz i took some crazy ass allergy shit and i couldnt go there..but he came over and stayed the night also because after he had to work on sat he was going away for the rest of the weekend and he wanted to spend time with me...lol i think he just felt bad cuz i was alone at the house cuz of allergies lol...well dad woke him up for work on sat and when he moved he elbowed me in the head lol...he felt really bad and apologized for like 30 mins but anyway i hung out with dad all day on sat then sunday mom and dad hung out and i took the car and went to billy and marilyns to chill ( gotta love them)...umm monday i didnt really do anything EXCEPT a really hot army recruiter (and i mean like crazy hot) came to talk to me about joining lol ...hahah no im NOT joining!!! josh said NO lol...umm yesterday i hung out with shawn for a little while and did joshs laundry (i guess i truely am whipped) lol jk...i did it to be nice...then last night britt, ben, bentley, BJ, Scott, Josh & I went bowling...that was cool ...i sucked my first game but my 2nd i was doing better...i was just happy to be able to finally see joshfor the 1st time in 3 friggin days...well the car ride home was the best thing EVER!!!...he laid his head on my lap and i rubbed his back and he went to sleep for like a whole 5 mins lol ..then we were almost home and i realized that he was looking at me...so i was like what are you looking at??? and he goes you and i asked why and he said cuz theres so much i wanna say but i wont ...so he kinda left me hanging there lol ...well then we were play argueing about how he "supposedly" ALWAYS wins at anything he does lol ..i was like ok but i WILL beat you at something someday and we did the whole no yes no yes arguement..then he goes shut up and kiss me and he did the 2 hand face framing grab ( A COMBO BRITT!!! wooohooo) and he kissed me!!! it was awesome...i had alot of fun last night...umm then i got home and went in to talk to dad (which is an everynight ritual) and he said he sees that L word between us...i dunno about the L word thats just to fast for me...the L word means alot and if you dont mean it you should never say it...but yeah thats enough for me...im gonna get going ill talk to you all later and hope yalls days are kicking ass...here is my S.O.M (yes there back) lol
"A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me""
I confess, I{'m just} messed up
dropping "I'm sorry" like you're still around
And I know you dressed up
{said} "hey kid you'll never live this down"
And you're just the girl all the boys want to dance with
And I'm just the boy who's had too many chances
I'm sleeping on your folk's porch again, dreaming
She said, she said, she said, "Why don't you just drop dead?"
I don't blame you for being you
But you can't blame me for hating it
So say, what are you waiting for?
Kiss her, kiss her
I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late
Write me off, give up on me
Cause darling, what did you expect
I'm just off a lost cause
a long shot, don't even take this bet
You can make all the moves, you can aim all the spotlights
Get all the sighs and the moans just right
I'm sleeping on your folk's porch again, dreaming
She said, she said, she said, "Why don't you just drop dead?"
I don't blame you for being you
But you can't blame me for hating it
So say, what are you waiting for?
Kiss her, kiss her
I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late
(always on, always on)
You said you'd keep me honest
(always on, always on)
But I won't call you on it
(always on, always on)
I don't blame you for being you
But you can't blame me for hating it
So say, what are you waiting for?
Kiss her, kiss her
I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late
I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late
FOB gotta love them!!!
LOVE ALWAYS FOREVER AND TODAY
~Esha~
PS...HAPPY 16th JEN (Barbie)...i love ya much girly and also HAPPY 17th TINI...i love you much sis and i miss you like crazy!!!!
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| "Far Away"
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
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| well all i dont really know where to begin ...yesterday was cool i hung out with dad all day cuz his back went out AGAIN!!!...then shawn came over for like 30 mins and just chilled...mom picked up britt from school and came and got me and josh...we went out for dinner...my family loves josh...every single one of them like him...britt thinks hes cool as hell and my mom thinks the sun rises and sets with him...dad likes him and thinks hes cool and ben picks on him and jokes with him...i guess things are coming together FINALLY!!! we hung out all night last night...i went to bed at like 1:30am and josh crashed on the couch...it was just amazing to hear how passionate he is about what he does... he was talking about skating and all i could do was sit there and stare at him...hmmm i dunno whats happening but i like it hehehehe....but anyway on with the rest, britts phone woke me up this morning ..and i went to go see if josh was up for work and yeah he was sitting right there..laughed at me cuz i looked tired ...so i went to go back to bed and he came in and goes HEY BABY!!! "good morning beautiful how was your night" i giggled and he had to leave for work ...that song so has a new meaning lol...but anyway ..i dunno what im gonna do today...probably just chill...and see if mom gets done work early...hopefully talk to my girl heather just cause i miss her...
also i just wanted yall to know that those quotes are so true and if they helped any of you im glad...and im gonna keep posting more that have some sort of meaning in my life...so here goes
" Follow your dreams and all that you ever thought of, shall follow you."
"A friend is someone who will walk the long way when you don't want to hop the fence."
"Though miles may lie between us, we're never far apart, for friendship doesn't count the miles, it's measured by the heart."
"I smiled to many people for more than a billion times; but when I first saw you, my heart took over and smiled for the first time."
"Where so ever you go, go with all your heart."
"With a thousand different voices ringing in my ear. Listen to the whisper only the heart can hear."
"You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end."
"Sometimes it's the things that you can't do, that bring out the brilliance of what you can!"
"Life would go on smoothly if we only knew what to do with it."
"Laughter is like a fresh new day, each giggle is the dawn of a new morning; brighten up your day and smile with laughter."
"Women are like telephones; They like to be held and talked to, but if you push the wrong buttons you might get disconnected!"
"The best way to love is to love like you have never been hurt."
"Don't say you love me unless you mean it because I might do something stupid...like believe it!"
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, falling in love with you was beyond my control!"
"If it was love which made me fall for you...then I am still falling."
"If you're asking if I need you, the answer is forever. If you're asking if I will leave you, the answer is never. If you're asking what I value, the answer is you. If you asking if I love you, the answer is I DO."
"They say, 'A picture is worth a thousand words,' but when I saw yours, I was speechless."
well all i think thats enough for now...hope you like them...i love you all and if ANY of you need to talk at ANY time...yall got me...
LOVE ALWAYS FOREVER AND TODAY
~Esha~
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